Simple.

I love music. I love bands. I love this.

BU I'm home.

It's been a few months since I have blogged. I think it's time to rekindle my thoughts.

Happy is the best way to describe my move. Frightening, enlightening, and beautiful describes my first few months. I couldn't have picked a better place for growth, and I already see the changes.

One of these changes, is not always accepting what is being offered within my life. I constantly find myself questioning the results of my particular actions and what has happened within my own past. I've always loved solving puzzles. There's such a calming and awe inspiring way that you shake the puzzle up, toss it to the floor, and fit everything back together.

One of these questions that reoccurs prominently has been about relationships. I found as I questioned myself I discovered my fear of love. My fear of being hurt. My fear of not being good enough. My insecurity. But the more significant question here is why am I not taking risks? I have one life, and it might be bad sometimes but the beauty that comes after the bad parts is remarkable.

Through my move I have also learned of my passion, but that's quite possibly for the next post.

I'm back.

Officially moved out of my mother's house. I'm still not quite sure how I feel about that, but these are the time when you are running so fast the shock can't hit you until you stop. There will be no stopping anytime soon however.

I am so excited. Gah!

I am just going to let things flow as they are meant to, and just catch the wind and follow it.

<3

It's a peculiar feeling watching as you struggle to strengthen friendships before leaving, as one friend resists this. I do not understand why she is distancing herself from me. I have tried and tried to look back upon any mistakes on my part, and I can't find any correlation between the two. The only significant event is that I am moving to Boston, and if this is truly the reason I am utterly disappointed and hurt. I attempt to mend the broken ties, as she pulls them back. I'm not asking for peace anymore, rather answers. All I would like to know is why.

However, whilst I sit here and wait for the answer that seems to never present itself, I have grown a stronger bond between a friend I was meant to reconnect with. It's awe-inspiring how thing work out.

Boston is 24 days away now. I can't wait one more second! I am so excited to finally be on my own, and have already met some amazing people :]

I am lost.

I am frustrated.

I am excited.

I am here.

I am confused.

I am in love.

I am listening.

I am breathing.

I am doing.

I have no idea what to do with this, other than to let everything fall into place.

I just have to have faith.

I will.

I am.

moving out takes a lot of effort.

:P :]

but you find the most amazing things

and its a wonder how you can pick up an old toy and remember exactly what you were thinking when you first got it

this is all becoming way too real.

im really excited.

I have no words for today, other than it sucked.

One from misunderstanding.

Two my fault.

Three because someone is very insecure with certain issues.

Four really?